The Important Ones

7.02 in the morning-April 6 1992 was the most memorable moment when I took a very first deep breathe in this brand new world to me. I was a wonderful gift to a new married couple. We lived in a very little number of family members but have a lot of loves and genuineness. I was raised to be a well-manners human being. They'd been teach me to how to wear clothes, how to differentiate the pros and cons in life, the dos and don’ts and so on. Me, myself was so silent and love to be alone when I was a kid. The neighbors won’t see me play with their children. I spent too much of the time at home and school. But, both of them are the ones who always accompanying me for whatever I did. They always give chances for me to make my own decision and choose what I want to be by myself. When I made mistakes, they will give the most usable advices. Obviously, there is a reason why they advising me. There is a reason why they scolding me. There is a reason why they disallowing me from doing something. There is a reason why they keep watching me more than other things. There is a reason why I suppose to listen to them. There is a reason why I don’t want to hurt them. There is a reason why I won’t do all these above because there is no reason why I love them so much! You are the important ones, Mak and Abah! :’)

LOOKBOOK's Lover

All of these picturas were taken from LOOKBOOK <3

Textbooks Sexspot

Everyone has passions to something.

Some of them will turning crazy when get (or even just hear of) what they love to have.

It’s happening to me to.

I would be crazy with or without this thing.

What is the thing that I keep talking about? It’s my closest-to-me textbook, I mean Fashion Magazine!!!

I adore and love to read and spend most of my times and cashes on them.

20 dollar is the lowest cost to buy this desire of mine per week.

Harper’s Bazaar, Style and Marie Claire are my top-loved magazines.

You can throw me wherever you want; I need nothing to survive but fashion magazes ( and foodies HAHA )!!! 

They are my loyal mates.

Contented pages gave lots of present ideas and updated stuffs in fashion.

What we should wear and what’s not to buy at all.

I’m a drop-dead fashion lover.

I’m so alone without it, means nobody could stop me from addicting myself to it.

 ‘Everything is fashion. All fashioned things are the things that will make me happy’.

This quote wrote by me not either Anna Wintour or Alexander Mcqueen. rofl .

THE END.

The Blacklisted One

Years spent in high school was totally boring,

I was lucky to have someone who genuinely be my friend,

I was so closed to you at that time,

We used to be together wherever we go,

We shared almost everything,

The sads and happiness,

You’re the true joy for me,

No one can stand in the middle of this friendship and try to destroy it,

With the strength that we had,

We build a very strong bond,

But then I realized I am falling in love with you,

Loving you is a biggest mistake I suppose,

I ever imagined it must be hard if you’re no longer sit beside me to hear my problems and stuffs,

But then it did happened even though  I never wished it to be happen,

We been so far away even though we met everyday,

Similarities that we have is the separate-wall for us,

Differences powered them all,

I run miles away on hope tp leave this broken friendship,
But I can't,

Till now I still trying to forget you,

I would never lie anymore,

It’s hurt when thinking about it just by myself,

Now, I releasing them to make all you to understand what I’ve been thru before,

And now is best time for me to leave everything behind and start forgetting you.

I’m sorry, you’re the blacklisted one,
Eventhough this is not what I want.

Changing The Changes

Humans are specially made one of the kind for each one,

Notorious for the badness, famous for the well-manners,

Differences and uniqueness,

We are the leaders of this modernized world,

Control this God’s gift while using it wisely,

Centralize the direction of truth,

Revolutionize the teaching defense against unwanted behaviors,

But some being so deaf, so blind,

Like the thieves of the day,

Lost with lust which never last,

Idiocy nor hypocrisy monopolized the minds against the humanity nor sanity,

Grabbing all the others’ belongingness without permission,

Breaking the written rules for something on purpose,

Forming some sort thought of greediness nor arrogance,

But the kind ones still there to stand for the justice,

The unseen encourage spirit fights against humans‘ evil side for win,

Advices are the favorite invisible tool repairing the broken individual manners,

Help to change back the made up changes,

Each one frequently reminding the other one,

Then, the world will be the best like the sun,

Lighten the many with single directed bright ray,

Wishing it will follows along the lightless ways,

Oh I pray.

Awhile-Escapee’s Prison

By the happy mistakes, the misery gone at once with those witching moments,

Myself knowingly, it’s a responsible to me,

Memorized the difficulties for the well sake of mine,

Hosting and watching the boring event by my own,

The moments is too memorably miserable,

Existence of uncomfortable thoughts came all nights I had,

These feelings aren’t resting nor sleep at all,

How bitterly unfair my life had been there,

Then now I’m having free-for-awhile times,

Locked the center of spotted happiness and I stay in there,

Leaving the new family and back to the older one,

All ones are much obviously understandable,

I breathing with ease between them,

Clearly seeing the smiles and glee amongst them,

It does happen frequently between each two scaled seconds,

Within these, within ease,

However, this homey spot seems for me no more,

Need to reverse and live in the other one back again,

I never waited for that moment for myself for sure,

But in the end, the new one still the best place for me and the rest of mine,

And the unstoppable boredom-wheel will restart circling again,

Unwisely come against me,

Repeatedly within misery.

I wished a wish to be a guitar-master

The Holy Notebook

Mind and soul those you don’t need,

Pixeled-screen with hundreds anagrammed buttons,

Able to save millions un-objected useable information and entertainments,

Black and square attracts the sight of mine,

Easy to bring, easy to carry,

Time-spent is wonderful,

The excited-spot of excitement,

But today it’s broken and unbeautiful,

Fascinateless nor unattractive though,

But underneath, it’s still you,

‘Now’ equate to ‘before’,

Endlessly never be change,

I’ll use you all the time,

Thank you, my broken Compaq Presario V3000 laptop! It’s you!

Let us be unperfected,

Most of my friends thought that I am polite and quiet and stuffs, though few of them already knew my true colors and repudiated all the faked-good-sides of me at the first place. Be free and party perfecting my days. But I’m not getting into alcohols and drugs. Those would make me look even worse than I am now. I mean, I am skeleton-ly skinnier than the anorexics and much much uglier then the ugly duckling, and then why I must fuck-up my appearance while I can still have the good one? Insane! Caution; I’m not like what you ever think I am. I’m cool (sometimes), but mostly I’m easy to burning-up on some certain high-temperatured outrageous situations and places. So think twice, you better fuck off before I put some shits on your f-ing face or just follow this multi-help direction sign -> TO FUCK OFF PLEASE USE THE MOTHERF BACK DOOR. THANK YOU! This may be an advisable suggestion.LOL. FYI, I took personal tempered-control class with my four years old cousin. She’s great on giving me a lesson in the Cool-Down-the-Temper subject. Arh, she’s wonderful! (double thumbs up for her). I’m so unpredictable. Sometimes I can be more hardcore-er than you are, but most of the times, I used to write poem, not just love poem with those flowery words, like, the-sky-is-blue-when-the-pollen-flew-away-thru-the-warm-air-at-the-middle-of-endless-summer. Err..Not just that. But I’ve to admit that I obsessively in love with love poems. HAHA. On the other hand, being too nice sometimes help you to faking up yourself much more. I met one guy who is always being so nice and religious in public, but when he gets ultra-excited, he being so rude and childish. There is no long-distance remote control able to mute his trashy words. So, that’s him, let he be himself. I am myself. So never copycat other people just you want to be perfect. The imperfectness that you have will make the flaws stand out to be remember by all. Sign out ;)

Secreted Signals

‘Hey!’

That’s the first word came out from your mouth,

I never talk to you before,

But each second, it’s hard to not look at you,

I don’t know why,

You not even categorised in the-most-cute list though,

But i know you’re special,

Especially your smile,

You brighten my day with those nude-pouted lips

But you such a silence,

It’s hard to hear you to speak out,

But the way you move tells everything,

Yesterday, I sat faced to you,

I know you knew I look at you,

It’s all coincidence,

It’s automatically happened,

No one know I’m so into you, except for one,

Myself!

The Overwhelmed Boredom ( I just want my mom and home D': )

All day, all night fulled of laughters before,

Today, tonight is like a fall for all,

At this peek of bore-mountain, I use to ask and scream,

Is this the best place for me to live?!

Is this opportunity is the God-given-gift?!

I’m confused,

I try to find the light,

But the light is too dim to brighten up my goals,

People’s lies and hypocrisy are the biggest issues to handle with,

I can’t stand all these single handedly,

Someone, please help me!

Now, I’m alone at the middle of this crowd,

They are just too loud,

Nobody listen to this voice,

I’ve been captured inside this cage of noise,

I wish,

I wish the time going faster,

Hoping the moment become better,

Leave this miserable place forever!!

When the hearts use its own language to speak out.

Looking into your eyes is the most exciting feelings ever,

Holding your hands make my heart beating faster,

Touching your hair make me hardly shiver,

I knew I am falling for you forever,

But I don’t know what should I do now?

It is impossible for them to understand,

This is like a big war of two fallen-in-love warriors.

Am I brave enough to stab the affections sword into your little heart?

Or am I should just tell you the truth?

I’m confused,

I hope this won’t stay any longer,

God, please help me to forget these f-ing stupid feelings.

Maybe I just can keep it as the biggest unspoken secret I ever had,

Or it just the stupidest wish I ever made.

Or maybe it just likes a will-o’-the-wisp thing and stuffs.

But I am sure I already shot the love cupid pass through your chest and straightly stabbed into your heart.

Means, I've already sent the signal and I can’t delete it from your memories,

Though, this won’t happen to us,

And loving you is a crime,

Everyone knew that,

But I know you knew I love you baby,

And I am sure you did the same too,

That is the only thing that I want you to understand.

Let our hearts keep everything,

And no one should know all these for sure.

Let it just us.

Just you and me.

The Awareness on Importance of Friendship,

Fairuz Shazni Sahat, Syuhada Abdullah, Athirah Yusof,,

A row of names of real good friends,

wow, i am greatly blessed because befriend with these people,

the kindness and fidelity they shown in this friendship are the fundamental of affections and this 'sister-hood' *mengaku girl-girl kejap ROFL :D

arh, I missed all these biatches,

they are my mates, they are my trusts,they are everythings to me,

yeah korang sangat penting bagi aku,
I LOVE YOU GIRLS!! *pouting mouth and open arms,

Love Calls

''Love is a magical roller-coster of hapiness,

there is no flavours of love without embers, jealousy and injection of affection'',

''Love is not a rhythmic song,

sometimes flat and sometimes sharp,

the players need to control the melody and tempo wisely to attain a perfect line of  chordes

and the players are we'' ,

-Iskandar-

He Amis, this my blog,

I am Zuliskandar Zulkarnain,

A tipical man with extraordiary personality, *wink ;)

I believe in God,

I believe on the existance of ghosts and other superstitious things too,

because i always seen them around,

I am Tall, 179cm is my height,

60kg is my weight, i am so not heavy but not aneroxicly skinny,

I am so close with my mom, Shiela,

she is my friend and my personal cooking chef, ROFL,

My dad's name is Zulkarnain / Tom,

he loves soccer but hates futsal,

and i don't know why he hates futsal so much -.-', HAHA

I have two younger sisters,

Sue and Asya, they are the Metal-Women for their school.

they're so active in sports and all,

I have no girlfriend.
Girls = Troubles

So that all, Daa ;)